My Black is Beautiful ♥
Hello Dolls!
Sugar Baby Tip #019
Get a Pay Pal account. This was a recommendation from Sugar Daddy who checked out my blog. It helps keep account information discreet and confidential for both parties. I like this idea and have considered it, except I keep assuming that the old guys I talk to don't know nothing about Pay Pal LOL! Well I guess if they can handle making an online profile, they can handle Pay Pal :)
Sugary Updates
Ok now I am super paranoid about how many of MY Pots read my blog and recognize its me. I hate censoring myself and my thoughts, but this is a business and I gotta put those interests first. I may change the settings to make my blog invite only. I see a lot of sugars have gone that route. In three weeks I've had almost 3000 views yet I only have 20 followers…hmm. Then another part of me doesn't care. This is how I really feel. If I talk trash about something disgusting or disrespectful a POT did…yeah catch a hint asshole, that's why I didn't call you back haha! I'm always going to be cordial in person. I'm zero drama (for the most part lol). I don't like drawing a whole lot of attention to myself if I can help it.
Hmmm. Mr. Artist wants to be complicated and send the money directly to my college to pay my tuition. Sounds like he doesn't trust me. I hate it when people want to do something nice for you, but they fuss over what you do with the gesture. Give me the tuition money, obviously I'm the one who wants to stay in school…if I spend it on something else that's my dumb ass fault. He can send it directly to them, I don't care. It's just a bit irritating because I'd rather touch it and pay it myself so I KNOW it got paid on time. Maybe the problem is that I don't trust HIM. I don't want him saying he put it in the mail on time and then forgot and by the time I realize it, then I'm late and getting dropped from my courses.
I had kind of an off day today. I had a doctor's appointment. The nurse demolished my veins because she couldn't get my IV in right. My arms are so sore. Then when they injected me with a dye for a body scan…it was excruciatingly painful…probably because the nurse jacked up my veins from sticking me too many times. I cried and went into full blown panic attack mode. Its so rare that I have emotional breakdowns but I was so traumatized. Once they start the injection, they can't stop it till its done because a machine does it. I had two doses. So after experiencing how bloody awful the first one was, I panicked the whole time anticipating the pain for the second one. This other patient (gorgeous dark skinned girl with a sexy ass figure, perfect skin, and the cutest zebra print heels) complimented me on my hair before I got called back. When the test was over I took off running with wig in hand and that girl was sitting right outside the door. I was so embarrassed and eyes bloodshot from crying.
I've been still hunting for new POTs. I'm not getting very many bites on the sites. I've been messaging White men, but a lot of them aren't writing back. I can't help but wonder if its because they're not attracted to black women. One guy had on his profile that he didn't want any black women messaging him. That kind of struck a nerve. How about you describe what kind of women you like rather than describe a racial category that you don't like. Black women come in all shades, sizes, attitudes, and flavors…so how can someone say oh I don't find any black women attractive? Black women in my family have blonde hair and blue/green eyes…not that they are more beautiful, but they are not the stereotype. I think people who think like that stereotype and are ignorant. If you like fair skin, light colored eyes…then you can find that in middle eastern women, european women, latino women, and even black women. I understand everyone has their preferences, but if your preferences come from some Jim Crow bullshit, you need to get a life. I love men who find beauty in women despite superficial things like race. Race isn't even biologically or genetically based, its a social construct used to stratify classes of people. Ok, as a multiracial woman, I'm going to get down off of my soap box now :)
♥ Dream SB
